Jacob's duties meant he was forces to isolate himself... He had to be impartial.
I made a mistake today, one that threatens to lead to more mistakes. I spent time alone with Alya - something I have avoided until now.She reminds me of my beloved Sofia, whom I thought I'd long forgotten, and it opens my heart like a wound. She clouds my judgement, even when she is not present. I sound like a giddy child, and those days are far behind me. I must bury these old feelings deep and stay apart from my people for a time.